So far, the book has been an easy read. Geneen Roth seems like a casual, insightful, and relatable person. Not just because she curses in the prologue...but because I can really relate to her views about God. I can relate to her periods of question...but knowledge that something is truly out there that is bigger than us. So, I like her...and I think that is somewhat important when reading a book. I have struggled to get through A New Earth and The Power of Now, and it may just be that Eckhart Tolle does not seem casual and relatable (he definitely seems insightful). Anyway, I am looking forward to hearing what Ms. Roth has to say in her book.
At first, the prologue had me a little skeptical. She writes about all of these women with these major issues in their lives or from their childhoods. As I read, I kept thinking, I don't have that excuse...I did not grow up with fighting parents...or feeling ugly...or even issues with my weight. I was having a hard time relating to how my life and my history related to how and what I eat.
But then she wrote about paying attention. Paying attention to how you behave when you don't get what you want or things don't go your way. She said that I need to pay attention to what I value, how and on what I spend my time, my money...and of course, how I eat. This paragraph made me think. I don't know what it made me think...but it made me think. It made me think that she may be on to something. All of those things mentioned are things that I have issue with in my life. What do I value? What is truly important? Clothes and material things? People? Why do I feel the need to always be right? Why do I feel heat rising internally when I don't get my way or when things go wrong? Why do I feel such despair? Why do I spend, when I know that I desperately need to save? And why am I drawn to foods that I know will not make me feel good in the long run? Why do I feel that I need to satiate my cravings or I will not be unhappy or I will be unsatisfied in life? Though I don't know what all this means for me and food, I do know that it made me think. Which is good.
It also got me thinking about my huge fear of losing people in my life...specifically my mother and my fiance. I know that my anxiety over death is because I lost my father at seventeen. And though, I think that I mourned appropriately, I think that I have this unnatural fear and/or anxiety about losing the people that I love most. Anyway, I don't know what that means either or how it connects to anything, but I do think that it is important to get it out and think about it. So, I am.
Okay, off to read chapter two. I'll report back later.
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