My internet connection has been totally crazy since the power went out a couple of hours ago. Boo!
Well, first, I think that I have gotten away from why I started this blog. I started really as a diary/journal. I wanted to record my thoughts, my weight loss, and just my general journey to good health. I wanted the site to be somewhere that I could go to see if my favorite bloggers have updates and track my miles.
But after constantly going to everyone's wonderful health blogs, my vision got a little skewed. I too wanted a really awesome blog. I felt the need to "go public." I felt the need to add pictures to spruce up the site. I felt the need to constantly check my stats to see how many people were/weren't visiting (Dork! Half of those visits are you checking on how many visits. Duh!) Anyway, I lost sight of why I am doing this.
I also have felt myself becoming a little obsessed. Going from blog to blog...and health magazine to health magazine. I want change now...and I'm finding it hard to be patient. I want to be an uber-healthy person overnight...though I know that this is impossible.
I'm thinking about changing my blog title. I should not want to be something that I am not. I should be embracing me. That is what this journey should be about. I don't know what that looks like...or what I'm supposed to do...but it is something that I have yet to learn. This would entail changing my URL (that's what it is called, right)...and going private again. Don't really think that I will be missed...plus I can ramble and not proofread and not worry about what anyone will think.
As for feeling better, I do...a little better. I took the day off and my body (really my knees) felt a lot better this morning. And after reading blogs (all day), I am a little bit excited about 73 minutes of run/walking (just a little though). Still not super excited about JM...but hopefully that'll change. I'm gonna do Shred after my run...we'll see how I feel doing things in reverse.
I'm still super duper stressed about my paper. I did NOTHING today...at least nothing worth mentioning. I really need to do something about the stress. It's gonna kill me. I really do poorly under pressure. I have cried at least two times today.
Anyway, I plan to have a salad with shrimp for dinner tonight. Oh! And I have (for the first time in my life) thought about the idea of dabbling in a little veganism. Oh She Glows is the new blog that I found today and she actually makes it seem very...yummy, I guess. I don't know. I may try one or two days a week. I'm not sure what I'd be getting myself into.
Okay. Need to put on my workout gear. Seventy-three minutes...here I come!